Hope...

Have you ever felt like you're older than you actually are?? I feel that way all the time. It seems like because of all the obstacles I've had thrown at me were designed to age me. I go through the house at night and lock all the doors and windows, then make sure everyone else is asleep or in bed and has all they need. Before I even think of getting into or on my own "bed". Not only that, but while everyone my age is out dating and having fun (shopping, drinking coffee, dancing, etc.) I'm doing the responsible thing of doing homework or laundry or cleaning or seeing what I can do for the other members of my family. There are days of course where I don't do much besides goof off, but lately they seem to be farther and farther apart. I guess that's what you get for getting older. I just hope it'll even out a little in the coming years. Hopefully, my family and I, we'll get out of our tough situation and into a more relaxed and home-y place. Where we're currently at isn't home. It's just a house and shelter for the current time being. Hopefully, Hopefully,Hopefully! Later~ Me