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have you ever wondered? like really wondered. just asking???

Sporadic Life!!

Sorry, that it's taken me a ton of time to update.. Life has just been a little to sporadic and fast paste for me lately. I'll try to be more diligent about posting!!

So, on with the show!!

Sibling A is kicking me out today.. Even though it's my agreed upon laundry day. Apparently, it's not all that important to keep your word now a days. Back in the old days it was thought to be respectable to keep to your words even if it's only a small thing you're agreeing to. Now... I'm not trying to sound all "High and Mighty". I know I stumble and fall flat on my face several times a week for not keeping to my own word. But, I'm trying to be better which is really all any one person can ask for. Trying your hardest is really the only thing that people should expect out of you. With trying your hardest comes the wonderful feeling of accomplishment. Of knowing that no matter the out come you gave it your all. No one can ever take that away from you. It's a wonderful thing. Wethar you win or lose... Fail or succeed. Good work to all of us out there who try their hardest no matter what people may think of them!!

Now, I'm rambling and getting off topic. And that is my sign to post this as is and try again later.. Not that my bunny trail wasn't fascinating or anything.. Write more later... if I can!!

Housemates!

Sibling A had friends over tonight.
while they were here he told me and them that: 1) because he moved in with Parent 2 the house was half his. 2) that Me, Parent 1, and Sibling B should of moved out 6 months ago.

Makes you feel loved. It's like he forgets that the reason we're all living together isn't by choice. It's out of necessity. If we could we wouldn't be here at all. But till Parent 1 and/or I get a job that pays semi-well. We're stuck.

It's so miserable here. I wish we weren't all stuck together, or at the least, that we could all get a long, but I know that it's going to take awhile before that wish comes true.


Glad I could vent!!
 Hugs and God bless!!

Visalus..

Visalus is a miracle... why? well.. it's actually exactly how it's advertised!! It really is the shake that tastes like cake!


Well....

Parent 1 and Sib. B (the and me is implied) joined our local YMCA yesterday. It's been a lot of fun. Already I'm seeing weight loss. I went from 218 lbs. to 217.5 lbs... Granted it's not much, but when you take in to account that it's caused from a 15 min. bike ride... It's kinda a lot. To me that is!

Gotta go,
 ME

A Sunday Psalm!!

Psalm 100

A psalm of thanksgiving.

 ¹ Shout with joy to the Lord, all the earth!
    ² Worship the Lord with gladness.
      Come before him, singing with joy.
 ³ Acknowledge that the Lord is God!
      He made us, and we are his.
      We are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
 ⁴ Enter his gates with thanksgiving;
      go into his courts with praise.
      Give thanks to him and praise his name.
 ⁵ For the Lord is good.
      His unfailing love continues forever,
      and his faithfulness continues to each generation.

Quotes Part 1!!!!

I thought I would post some of my favorite quotes... I'm thinking of making it a regular thing. Like once a week or more posting a few (1-3) quotes at a time. Just so that I make it a habit of posting something... Even if the significance of it is just known to myself. Well, I hope your all ready for them!!


First Quote is.....

Stress is when you wake up screaming, and then realize that you haven’t fallen asleep yet—Unknown-
This quote makes me smile. It's so true, and it depicts stress really well. 'Cause, if you really think about it on your most stress-filled days you really feel like you should be waking up scream, and that it's all just a nightmare. Then, you realize that it's all real. And,that is, a real nightmare. (My grammar sucks!!)


Second Quote is....

The cure for anything is salt water: sweat, tears, or the sea—Isak Dineson

I really don't think this one needs an explanation.

Third Quote is...

"Either you suck at math, or you're going to die in two seconds." (House from House MD)
  
I picked this one, because... it makes me feel like I should actually pay attention to my math book. Yes, you really do need math later on in life... That doesn't mean you have to like it! (:P)

Fourth, and Last, Quote is...

Do not blame God for having created the tiger, but thank him for not having given it wings.
Indian Proverb
You know why I chose this one... 

To make you picture a tiger with wings... 

Go on... Picture it! 

Terrifying... Right?? Well, now you know that you should listen to the aforementioned Proverb, and thank God that he didn't give the tigers wings!! 

Write more later!!

The Greatest Week.... of Awhile!!!

So.... I feel like celebrating!! Parent 2 is going to be out of town this week!! It's going to be so stress free! Well, more so than with him here! Yippee!!!

On another front, Sibling A is in the running for a job at his church! We're all praying that he gets it. Not only will it give him job experience, but he'll be able to afford to his own gas and other expenses. It'll be great... The other bonus is he'll be out of the house more. The downside is he'd need his car more. :(
Other than that... It'll be great!


Well...



Write more later!

Got me thinking... and crying!

How Great Thou Art ~ Carrie Underwood with Vince Gill

This song is very touching. It got me thinking about what this weekend really means. Sometimes we're so caught up in the little things  we forget about the big things. I hope you enjoy this song! I'm not going to say more about it... I'll let you make up your own minds. Happy Holy Saturday or Black Saturday... whichever name you prefer!

My drug of choice!! :P

So... I have this addiction. It's not bad like drugs, alcohol, or porn. But it's an addiction none-the-less... My addiction is.... Fanfiction!! Harry Potter fanfiction at that. It's the best thing. It gets me out of my head and into this wonderful place, or it shows me somebody who's life is worse than mine, which makes me feel better about my life. It's like a soap opera, but in written form. It's cool.  Well, write more later!

Toes... Broken!

So, I broke my "pointer" toe on my right foot last Thursday! It's such a pain.. Literally! You never know how much you use or need your toes till you brake one. Toes, I have learned are a very intricate and vital part of our bodies. That is why braking them hurts a ton.. or any type of injury to them hurts a lot worse, then to say your arm. Oh.. Well you learn something new everyday. Hopefully, I will heal really quick! Why? Because Easter is next weekend, and I'd really like to be able to sing with my choir in church! But if I'm not healed... I won't be able to walk enough to be comfortable to go to church! Thanks for listening!

A Harry Potter Life... Kinda!

Living how we've been living is literally sucking the life right out of me, Parent A, and Sibling B. This last year has been havoc for us... Not only did we have to move in with Parent B and Sibling A, but we also had to sell our car (because it would've cost to much for us to fix), we've all gained weight, and last but not least we've all gained a really, really run-downed, totally exhausted, ready-to-wave-the-white-flag soul. I honestly don't know how much longer we can last. All of us.. Parent A, Parent B, Sibling A, Sibling B, and I... It's past bad, really bad, horrible, and gone straight into it's now Azkaban!! With Dementor-ish people/wardens. I need to get out of here... Hopefully, if we get out soon... We'll be mostly intact... Or at least have enough pieces to put us all back together again.. Even if it'll be a little "Wonky". Yep... I said "Wonky"! < Inside joke!

Struck Out.

I was reading a book by Jenna Lucado today.. It's called Redifining Beautiful. As I was reading I realized that everything I thought about my relationship with my Heavenly Father. Was totally and completely wrong or way of base. But I also realized that I'm still growing in my faith, and that I have this wonderful opportunity to change how I think and act about my relationship with Him! It was a wonderful and horrible experience. Wonderful because I can  actually see a small glimmer of light at the end of a very, vast tunnel that is my Walk. It's  a light that says now you're headed in the right direction. I know that no matter how big of a epiphiny it was. I still have tons more to come.  It was also horrible because... I realized that I had been walking so close to the edge of the abyss that I almost fell to my doom.. (yes, I can be a drama mama when I want to)... Okay, so maybe, it wasn't that bad, but it could have been.  Now I get to redefine and redevelop my relationship with My H. Dad! It's a very scary and exciting prospect! I'm looking forward to every moment of it!

"If you are wise and understand God’s ways, prove it by living an honorable life, doing good works with the humility that comes from wisdom. But if you are bitterly jealous and there is selfish ambition in your heart, don’t cover up the truth with boasting and lying. For jealousy and selfishness are not God’s kind of wisdom. Such things are earthly, unspiritual, and demonic. For wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and evil of every kind. But the wisdom from above is first of all pure. It is also peace loving, gentle at all times, and willing to yield to others. It is full of mercy and good deeds. It shows no favoritism and is always sincere.  And those who are peacemakers will plant seeds of peace and reap a harvest of righteousness.^{"                                             James 3:13-18}

Write more when I can!

Moving... Maybe!

Over the past month Parent 1, Sibling B, and I have been talking about moving east! To what is known as "the Bible belt" of the country. Why? Because the prices for things are cheaper. It's far away from the influence of Parent 2. And, lastly, it would just be a could chance to start over... or I guess more like a renovation on our lives then a true blank page start over. I hope and pray that this is truely what God wants and wills us to do. I'm sick of thinking that what we're doing is what He wants us to do.. Then in a few days or weeks or months realizing that He really didn't want us to be doing it! So, prayers for guidance and clear directions would be greatly appreciated.

Hope you like your update!! Write more when I can!!

Hurts!!

So, yesterday Parent 1 and I went to Costco! on our way back to the car, I sprained my ankle. It hurts a lot! We don't have an ankle brace/ Ace Bandage here. Which is strange considering how many times we all get injured.  Oh well. Guess it's just a little weird thing about life.. Write more later!!

The Last Song..

My mom and I just finished watching "The Last Song". It's a movie with Miley Cyrus.. Not some one who I'm a fan of right now... Well.. As  a person that is!  This movie.. It's a really emotional one! It totally had me crying at the end! It's so sad, but so so beautiful! It's got a lot of truths in it that make it really hard to watch without crying.  One off the funnier lines from it was " PMS: Pissed at Men Syndrome". Kind of explains everything doesn't it! Well... Thought I'd share some of my thoughts about the movie..


I know I haven't posted for awhile, but I've been helping Parent 1 deal with some health issues. It's been taking  a lot out of both of us.. But they're on the mend now! So... Hopefully, I'll be able to deal with writing and posting more often! Have a great week! God Bless and Be With Everyone!

2:08 am Ramblings!

I just read a letter that an old friend of mine wrote to their mom, who had an affair and walked out on God, it was very touching. It showed me that no matter what happens in our lives as long as we trust God with all our hearts we can heal and start anew, but that if we let it fester it's just going to get worse and worse. I truly hope that there was closer for both of my friends, the mom and the daughter, but most of all I hope that they get a closer relationship with Christ out of all the hear-ache and pain that has happened.

So... I know it's been a little while since I've last posted, the reason is... I should have never given this out to all of my friends/family... It's just a bad idea.. I now know this anyways. I had hoped that it would all be okay, but I guess not. It's all better now though. For the most part that is! I can't wait to get back to writing everyday! I missed it... Although... Playing the PC games has been tons of fun.. I highly recommend Heroes of Hellas for all of you out there! It's tons of fun. But probably only for those who like puzzles and logic! Yep... That's what I've been doing instead of  writing! Anyhow, I gotta go now! Sleep well, and have a Blessed rest of the week!!  P.S. You should all check out Proverbs 18:24.... Why? Because then you'd at least know one part...tiny though it is....of my schooling! LOL!! XD!

Start of week 2!!

Looking forward to this upcoming week. It's the start of a new routine! Why? Because this week should be normal week for us. Such fun! Well, I'm tired...So... Night all!

Ah... Friends...Maybe!

 I'm writing this right after putting the web address somewhere my friends and family can get to it! So....

                  Welcome, Friends and Family, to my blog! Where you can enjoy all my thoughts. About anything... Literally anything! It really depends on my mood when I start writing.. also when I am writing.. If it seems all over the place... It's because it is! :P But.. you'd not have me any other way! Although if you did want me another way let me know... So I can delete you and avoid you from now on.. Yep, that's what I thought! You wouldn't be able to think of me  any other way than I am right now. Unless of course you knew  me as I was growing up.. In  which case... I ask you don't spread the blackmail around to the Newbies of my life! Jk.. though seriously I want those pics back... You know who you are! Anyways... Welcome once again! Please comment tell me what you think... Even if it's just that I'm crazy.. Though... I already knew that!! =D

Well, now that the welcome is out of the way... I can go! Write more later!! Hugs~Feel the Love! <3<3<3

I'm Bored!

 I'm bored! So I'm going to bug you all!! I had a fun day so far!! I spent a lot of my time with Parent 1. We went to lunch! It was so yummy! We're starting a Lacto- Ovo diet! It's a type of Vegetarian diet! Yummy! Veggies here we come! Can't wait till we move out of Parent 2's house, and into our own place. But before we can do that Parent 1 has to learn Spanish and Get a job!! Hopefully we can be out of here in the next 6 months or so!! If not... Well, these post will get even more entertaining! Gotta go! I have to shower now... Or else I won't get a chance till tomorrow night! Not good. Since we have church in the morning!! Can't wait. I missed the Thursday night stuff. So this is the first time in a little while that I'll get to see my new friends!! Okay...  BYE!!!!!!

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1st week of school! I made it out alive... Just barely, but I did it! Now... I gotta go.. I'm zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz! Uh Huh! Bye!

Today...Or yesterday!

It totally sucked. I severely dislike our washer and dryer. Nough Said!

On a roll..

Yay! I'm on a roll. Third post in as many days! Hopefully, I can keep this up! It's nice to be able to write about stuff that has happened, or my feeling, or anything else! Yep, I'm truly grateful that Parent 1suggested I start this blog! You should all know though that my keyboard doesn't always work.. So, there may be spelling or grammar issues that don't stem from the fact that I'm still learning my stuff in English, Spelling, and Grammar. Although, I guess that's all a part of English. Instead of three different things! Oh well! Doesn't really matter!

  Today was the first time in a long time that all of mine and Sibling B's homework/schoolwork was done within just a couple of hours. Instead of the 4-6 that it usually takes! Which if you think about it from a School kid's point of view isn't a lot, but for most Home-Schooled kids it is! But I'm not getting into that! I think we'll probably keep going to the Library to do our work. Now that Parent 1 has seen how much quicker we can be in a quiet, book filled environment. Instead of our usual Fast Food joint that we normally use... Which does work most days, but where we normally go has been full of students on lunch break from their classes that it's been so loud that we just can't concentrate! Oh well! Live and Learn as they say! Live and Learn!

   I really dislike that I keep staying up this late. I want to start going to bed earlier, but I don't think it'll work. I sleep out in the Living Room, and people just don't respect the fact that now with school started back up that I can't stay up and wait for them to be finished out there before going to sleep. Neither can I go to bed with them out there! I dislike going to bed where other people are awake and can watch me sleeping... It creeps me out!  But, like I said my siblings and parent ( Just Parent 2, not Parent 1) won't let me go to bed when I want to. I have to wait for them to be finished watching their shows or playing their game before I can go to sleep! It totally sucks. But there's not much I can do about it until Parent 1 gets a job and me, Sibling B, and Parent 1 can move out! It'll be so much better than!

   Any ways, It's late and I  have school in the morning! Write  more tomorrow!

Senior Year... Day 2!

So, I'm just gonna skip the whole getting to know you phase, and just write stuff as it happened. Instead of trying to catch up to the here and now, and losing what's been happening here to get the info from the past... (Yep, I just had a Harry Potter flash... Gotta love Trelawney!!) So.. Any ways.. It's the night after the 2nd day of my Senior year in High School... Yes, my school year starts in January!! I love it! Although, we don't really get a "Summer Break", because we school from January- November... We have a "Fall Break" that's about 2 months long though.. So, it all works out in the end!! :)
    
    Well, as I was saying before.. Today was my 2nd day. It's been hard to get back into doing schoolwork again. Mainly because of the tediousness of all the writing involved.. I wonder if there's always been this much writing involved?? Hm.. Something to ponder! I do like my subjects though!! I have English... Which is fun...  I was doing stuff about " Oregon Trails" today... I've done a lot about that book in my schooling so far... I'm kinda starting to be annoyed by it! Moving on... I also have History... I so love it!! My favorite historical figure is Paul Revere!! Everyone should be made to do a history paper on him.. At least... I think they should! Um.. I also have Biology... Oh, how I loathe thee! This is my third try at it!! It Sucks!!! I vehemently think that it should only be taught in College!! lol =P.. Kidding, though truthfully this year I think it will go better.. We're trying out a new curriculum for it! Which seems to explain it the way I need for it to click! My last subject for right now, (we're waiting for my Parent 1 to be able to afford to get more books to get the rest) is Algebra 1.. I'm trying to like thee! But it's just so hard!  I'm of the opinion that the alphabet and the numbers should be kept separate always!! It make my head hurt now that they're in cahoots with each other! Although my Parent 1 says that if I would just write out all the steps without trying to do it all in my head. It wouldn't hurt as much.. After today and doing it their way.. I have to agree.. So for all you out there trying to do Algebra in you head.. Stop! Use the paper, and write out all the steps! So, much better for you head! Less  time consuming too!!

     Well... It's late, and I'm exhausted! Because like I said it's the 2nd day of school, and my brain is having trouble catching up with all the work being thrown it's way after a 2 month break! I feel sorry for those of you out there that have 3 months during the summer! It must suck to have to jump back into all that work! I'm going to go to bed now.. I keep rambling today... Don't know why! =/ Oh well! Peace out! Sleep well, and Don't let the bed bugs bite! Although, If you'd just wash the sheets every couple of days.. You wouldn't have bed bugs... So, if you do get bitten... It's your fault for being a lazy bug.. or person.. =P! Hugs!

Intro 101

I am starting this blog as a way for me to vent about my life! I'm sure that's why a lot of people start blogs. It seems to be a good choice! So, now that you know why I started this I may as well get right to it!

Life right now is such a dysfunctional thing! My whole family is living together... In one house. Not a good thing. For most people I'm sure it's a great way to live, but not for us. My parental units are divorced for starters... I totally agree that this is the right choice for us, and them, but I also acknowledge that for most people you should just try to work out your problems! Any who... As I was saying we're all living in this house together... Me, Sibling A, Sibling B, Parent 1, and Parent 2.. It's not a good thing. But for now it'll have to do. I really dislike my Parent2, but I guess you just have to deal sometimes. I really hope we can move out soon, or otherwise we're totally going to show up on the news at one point for killing one another! Yes, It's almost to that point. It wouldn't be so bad if Parent 2 moved to Phoenix, or if he got hit by a car!! But because we have to deal with them a lot.. All of our emotions are so thin right now we jump down throats or start sobbing or laughing depending on what's been said or done by each other. Not a good way to live... Well, I'll leave off here for right now.. I have to get used to writing before I get into to much more! =P Write more Tomorrow!