Early Morning/ Late Night

It is one of those times I just can't seem to sleep. I have them every few weeks at least once in the week if not more. It's really annoying. The only good news is it no longer happens every night. I've been battling insomnia since I was 15. It's really hard to function with it. The worst part was at that age no body, but my mom was believing me. We even went to some doctors, but were told since I wasn't 18 it couldn't be insomnia, and that it must be something else. :( Luckily, it's slightly better now. I'm not sure it'll ever go away.. At least not completely.

Life Ponderings

It's hard for me to motivate myself to get things done lately. Mainly, I've been sick with pink-eye and stomach troubles, but it's not just those. It's not knowing how to get to where I want to be, where I'm feeling God's laid my heart to be. It's like I see an end I want, and it seems impossible to get there. I know if it's really where God wants me it'll all work out, but right at this moment I can't see it happening. :(

Been Awhile!

I know it's been awhile since I last posted, but it's because a lot of things have happened in the last few weeks.

  My birthday was back in February. It was a fun time, but then I got sick. Plus, with starting my new hobby/job it's taken a lot of my time and attention. I'm hoping to be more diligent with the posting here, but it's probably going to take a few try's to get a schedule worked out.

Thanks for hanging in there for me! :)

This past week.

A while ago I injured my left knee. It's healed, but when it's cold or I over do exercise it flares up. I've been dealing with a big flare up for the past week. I'm really hopeful that my knee will be normal (for me) by this Sunday. Why?? It's my birthday!!! I'm looking forward to it. I just hope I can be rested and not in pain for it!!

Anyways, I'll try to post more later!

Patterns.. Patterns.. and More Patterns!!

In the process of making my first quilt! It's going well. I'm just trying to narrow down the final pattern. The colors are beautiful, and the prints on the fabric is relaxing. I can't wait till it's finished.

Working with the sewing machine is great. It's really speed up the process.

Well, time to get back to it!!

My New Job/Hobby!

Over the weekend my dad bought me a sewing machine.

It's to help me get started making quilts and clothing.

I've decided to try and make my own quilts and clothes my job, by selling them online!

Hopefully, it'll turn out really well.

Lord willing, it'll help my family out with our situation!

Once I have some, I'll post pictures of the finished products.

 Thanks for reading my thoughts!!

Blogger Headache

So... the reason it's taken so long in between my last posts, is blogger wasn't letting me upload any pictures. Sad. Luckily, I've fixed the issue!! Yay. Expect more post now!!

Family..

I've decided to stop posting Parent A/B and Sibling A/B.

Instead, I'll be posting Mom, Dad, M, and R.

Hopefully, this will be easier for me to remember who I'm writing about.

Just thought I'd update you all on what's changing.

~Me aka N

Been Along Time..

So, it's been a long time since I've written, but I should be writing a lot more frequently.


I forgot to write in the last bit, because my R.L. (aka Real Life) had gotten a little more complicated than I thought it would get when I started this. Now, R.L. has gotten easier for me to find time to write. I'm hoping to write at least twice a week, if not more..


You'll notice I've added more pages to my blog since the start. It's so my posts are more manageable than making you scroll one huge list of post just to find one nugget of information. Plus, I wanted to add a bible study (more like bible thoughts) on here.


I hope you like the new and the old parts of this blog.


Write more soon!

Hope...

Have you ever felt like you're older than you actually are?? I feel that way all the time. It seems like because of all the obstacles I've had thrown at me were designed to age me. I go through the house at night and lock all the doors and windows, then make sure everyone else is asleep or in bed and has all they need. Before I even think of getting into or on my own "bed". Not only that, but while everyone my age is out dating and having fun (shopping, drinking coffee, dancing, etc.) I'm doing the responsible thing of doing homework or laundry or cleaning or seeing what I can do for the other members of my family. There are days of course where I don't do much besides goof off, but lately they seem to be farther and farther apart. I guess that's what you get for getting older. I just hope it'll even out a little in the coming years. Hopefully, my family and I, we'll get out of our tough situation and into a more relaxed and home-y place. Where we're currently at isn't home. It's just a house and shelter for the current time being. Hopefully, Hopefully,Hopefully! Later~ Me

Honest Abe...I wish~

Why is it that whenever people make fun or inflate the little things of other religions it's seen as not okay, but when it's Christianity it's okay? It's not. If you can't make fun or exaggerate things for other religions then you can't with Christians either. How is that "politically correct"?? Someone out there tell me. Please? I just can't understand it. Maybe, it's because I am a Christian. Or maybe it's because it really is wrong. No matter what though us Christians need to stop just excepting it as okay because some "trumped up" politicians and media personnel's think that it makes good TV and good foreign relations. This country was made on biblical principles.  How would our Founding Fathers and those who wrote our Declaration of Independence and all those who've given their lives feel about us abusing or even letting others abuse what they fought so hard for? I think they'd be hurt and discouraged. I know I would if someone did that to my accomplishments and hard-work. It's like we're taking everything they've done for granted. We don't even teach or remember their life's right. We keep letting our history be changed by whoever wants to use it to make their movements and their laws seem correct. When really, the laws put down by our Fore-Fathers and the generation that came after was right all along. It's not that hard to understand the laws and the amendments that they made were so clear. They put thought and reasons into those rules. Why? They wanted their country, our country, to be something to be proud of. The way things are today in this generation... I feel ashamed to be living here. It's not fair what's become of this once truly magnificent, honest, noble, brave, forward thinking, majestic, and honor bound country. The country of the past is the country that should be the base of what the future of this country should be. Not this everything must be "politically correct" and "everything in balance" nonsense. There is no such thing as "politically correct". It's either right, or it's wrong. Everyone can't be right. Every religion can't be the true religion.

Well, I've said my piece... Time to get off my soapbox for  a little while.
~Frustrated with Politicians..... Wish Abraham Lincoln, Paul Revere, Thomas Jefferson, and Martin Luther were alive still..
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Work Out...

Is a pain. It leaves you sore and ache-y! I like how my body is feeling a few days (sometimes hours) after my tough work outs, but the day (and hours) right after... Suck! I know I'm doing this for a good reason, but sometime it really doesn't seem like my reason and the aches equal out.  Oh well, I need to do the work outs to be healthy. I've been over-weight and unhealthy for a few years. Thankfully this year is turning out to be a good time for me to get good health again!

 ~ On-The-Way-To-Healthy!

In the Dark...

How many times do you have to stumble around in the dark before you hit something to guide you out?? I don't know, but I sure wish God would lead me to life's coffee table. I don't even care about the stubbed toe.  I know God's timing is perfect, and that He always has a plan.. So, why does it seem that for my life He's hit the proverbial brick wall??
               It's been almost 3 years since we've moved in with Parent 2, and things just seem to get worse. Not that we (Parent 1, Sib. A, and I) haven't tried to make things better. Something needs to give soon or else I fear all kinds of bad things will break loose.
                God, we sure could use your direction. Please, show us what it is You would have us do. Open up the way for us to go, and do what You want us to do! Give us your loving Guidance. In Jesus' holy name, Amen! 

 ~ Lost sheep :(


 

Laundry

I was in the shower tonight, and I was humming a song in my head... It took me about 5 minutes to realize what song... It was "Are you washed in the Blood?".  Once I recognized the song,  I just couldn't stop thinking about what the words to the little part I was humming meant..

 ".. Are you washed in the Blood? In the soul cleansing Blood of the Lamb? Are your garmets spotless? Are they white as snow?? Are you washed in the Blood of the Lamb?"

I know that I've been washed. Have you??

~ Just call me Snow White! :) 

Oh, how I loath thee.

Sleep. Isn't my friend. It's however true to the saying "sleep is hard to come by". For me it really is. I know I've had trouble with insomnia. Tonight, however, is not caused by that. My sleepless night is cause by.. (dun dun dun).. biking 45 minutes and going approx. 16 miles.. Not good for the sleep.. Why? You ask.. I'll tell you why. It causes your body to be really sore.. unless you routinely put yourself through that torture.

Hoping to sleep sometime tonight!

A first..

As the title says... This is a first... What do I mean by that?? Well, this is my first post from my new laptop. It's so nice to have all the keys work!
 So, what I've written above this is really all I wanted to say! See you later.

Momma Mia... YAY!!

So, I get to go to Momma Mia with my Tante on Sunday!! It's going to be a blast, and I'm really looking forward to it. The only draw back... is Parent 1 is sick (still), and they've been really needing my help to do a few things the doc's are having them do. Oh well.. it's just a day or so!! Write more later! :P

Healthy...or maybe not!

Have you ever wondered why people in your life become sick? I have, quite frequently too. God seems to like giving me opportunities to help people in my life and around me that have become sick or feel sick in their emotions. I've really been thinking about it in the last few days because Parent 1 is sick. We (meaning Parent 1 and I) think it's a yeast infection.. or maybe a staff infection.. or something like that. I ask that you pray for them. It's causing a ton of pain. It's in a sensitive part of the body (i.e. their genitals). I truly pray that it heals quickly. Parent 1 has been through so much. I've often times been amazed that P1 (aka. Parent 1) is as strong has they've been. If half the things happened to me I'd probably be down for the count in self-pity, but through everything they've been true to the Lord, and stayed faithful. I know there have been moments of doubt, and questioning, but even then, they've stayed in the Lord. I've truly been Blessed to have them in my life. 

 Dear God,

  I just lift up P1 to you. So, You can heal them. I pray that whatever this health scare is that You make it go away never to return. I pray that we all would be able to be health for You and in You! That we would all come to you to be healed. Whether, physically or spiritually healed. I know that if you willed it. IT would happen. So, I ask you as your daughter, though I've no right to, that you would heal us and lift this burden from us. I'm just now starting to figure out what it means to be faithful to You and in You. I realize that it's a little late in the game, but I no you don't count it out. Not yet! I pray that this could be my turning point. I know that my progress with probably be slow, but I'm going to keep going. Just like the turtle, slow yet steady... after all.. they won the race in the end. I know that I've asked a lot here.. but I also know that it's not to much for you. In closing, I just want you to know... I love you and I know You're the ultimate Healer and Friend. So, thank you for being my ever listening, ever loving, ever watchful....Friend and Father!!

 In Jesus' name....

 Amen!

A new year in life!!

My birthday is coming up here in the next week or so. In preparing for it, I've been thinking about what's happened in the time between my last and this next birthday. There have been many pleasant and great things ( Graduating, Getting my License, and Making plans for my life now that I have Graduated HS!), but there have also been a great deal of dreadful and depressing happenings too ( Being stuck at Parent 2's house, Parent 2's mother dying, and  Parent 1 not getting a job). All in all, I'm hoping and hopeful for what might and will come after in this next year of my life. Happy Belated New Year's!

dun dun dun....

have you ever wondered? like really wondered. just asking???